A Lil Bit..

  • Nov. 5th, 2009 at 11:25 AM
poeticsoul: (Sookie Vampire In Your Cleavage)
Just a little update on things here.  Still trapped in my bed.  It's driving me stir-crazy. I go out yesterday but it wasn't exactly fun.  It was JB's 32nd birthday so he picked me up and took me to a party his sister was throwing for him.  Turns out she invited more of her friends from work than his own friends.  She made it a birthday/business party. Some party. Snoozeville. JB said fuck it so Russ, Tommy, and I left. We ended up back at JB's place to drink.  Russ did 18 shots of Everclear and some other shit  that I stopped watching his intake.  I just did a couple shots of Everclear, had 4 screwdrivers, and 2 double shots of Kamikazes. Tommy just had beers and JB just had jack and cokes.  Got home around 3 this morning. Russ and Tommy are at work with headaches.  JB who knows. Seems fine to tweet though.  Russ is just spouting off on Twitter when he can.  Tommy is silent.  I'm fine though.

Stupid knees kill though.  I wish fall/winter season was over so I could get them fixed. Blah!  I updated my pixel site yesterday with a few things from Lovelight Pixels.  Just downloaded some things from Odd Pixels to work on when I can sit long enough.  I also bought a tube set from Rosey Posey Pixels.  Eh. Frankly this pain dampens my want to be on my computer much less be creative much. It sucks.  Big time. Well I am off. My knee is hurting sitting at this computer, but I had a serious pile of email to go through.


No where different

  • Sep. 28th, 2009 at 1:30 PM
poeticsoul: (Default)
Still around. Basically been trapped to the confines of my bed. Not fun and definitely not somewhere different. I have been on Twitter a lot. More so in my role playing character form than my actual self. I was accepted as a True Blood Original Character as well as my ex has too. I am a vampire named Elena (changed my name to the Spanish version of it) who is engaged to a human and is wondering who my maker is. My ex plays Justin (he and I are have no imagination when it comes to changing our real names lol) who is a 4th year resident doctor. You can find me at http://twitter.com/Fangalicious_e and you'll find me talking to mainly him, Sookie, Chow, Claudine, Godric, Jessica, and a few fae, humans, or weres. I think it's the closest thing I will get to getting any writing accomplished because all morning I have been trying to push the writer's block off me and the end result has wound up in the trash! Elaina fail.

Trying to return my pixel site back to normal has only brought major headache. My current host had to wipe everyone out of the system because of a virus and the need for server updating. So trying to restore the database file isn't working and she cut out the unlimited subdomains and MySql databases so I can't proceed until I move hosts on the 1st and start all over from scratch and that will be slow going because I can't sit at my computer too long without pain. Stupid knees! So right now my site is at a standstill. Well it's cold here so I am gonna take a hot shower and make some tea with hopes it will help some! Later.

Don't Be A Douchebag!

  • Sep. 22nd, 2009 at 10:31 PM
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Not much going on here. Got doctor's appointments booked for the next three weeks. Fun fun. I hate doctors! Next Wednesday I have to get an MRI done on my knees at 5pm. Lovely gotta deal with good old Chi-town rush hour traffic both ways. However, knees may not have collapsed yet. The swelling is down so he got a better look at them. May be able to stall replacement time with core decompressions instead.

Other than that today my ex called talking about coming over to hang out. To me the whole call smelled of a booty call. No thank you. I'd rather be calling for the booty call and using him instead of letting him use me again. Besides can't have sex for another three weeks and by then Aunt Flo will be back again. Pointless calling me. Call another girl in your black book of chics! He still owes me a gift come to think about it. Maybe after Aunt Flo next month I'll call in a birthday gift favor! lmao!

Well I am off to read before taking a lunesta and going to bed. Got PT in the morning. Lord please don't let anymore exes pop out at me! Night!


With Friends Like These...

  • Sep. 16th, 2009 at 5:27 PM
poeticsoul: (Lafayette Shake It Like A Salt Shaker)
Let me tell you about what lovely friends I have. *rolls eyes* Okay Kris knows I have been ordered to strict bedrest for a year. Now get this little trip. Well our friend Angi is moving her stuff into her new apartment and has Kris helping during the daytime on Friday. So Angi IM's me yesterday asking if I will watch Vito so they don't have him to deal with. Now I have an hour of PT every Friday and they both know this. However, that doesn't matter nor is it the point. 1 why isn't Kris asking me? 2 the most important point imho is why the fuck are you asking me to babysit period when I am on strict orders for bedrest and not to lift anything heavier than 5 pounds (Vito weighs 32 pounds). I can't even bend far. How the hell would I pick him up to change his damn diaper? Oh and if my knee gave out while I have him in my arms not only do I risk my hip popping out but I could hurt him. Granted he's a husky bruiser but still! Are they gonna take care of me when my hip pops out and I am serious agony waiting for surgery to get it popped back in? Hell to the fuck no! I hate how majority of the time they are totally inconsiderate of me and the shit I do deal with. Yeah I may not fucking work, have no car, and only one child but I do have a chronic illness, major depression, and joints that fall apart thanks to my chronic illness causing avascular necrosis. Oh and did I mention my mortality rate is lower than theirs? Oh yeah I don't have enough shit on my own plate give me yours too. Forget the point that my mom's standing with her company is unknown since they sold it but haven't stated if they are keeping the employees or not. Yeah pile it on. Okay I am done bitching since I am tired but I am still pissed off and I am gonna say shove it to them.


Well That's Fucked Up!

  • Sep. 15th, 2009 at 6:23 PM
poeticsoul: (Eric Northman Spotted)
Today I fucked up my knee even more. I had been walking around my apartment all day without my walker. Well my knee felt like it was about go out from under me but I maintained my balance like any other time it feels that way. Well today was definitely different. I caught my balance and as I proceeded to continue walking from the kitchen back to my room a pain from knee to my toes started up. I couldn't walk any further but I had no choice since my walker was in my room. I think I made my knee collapse more that I might have cracked my shin bone a bit but I won't know until next Tuesday when I see my orthopedic surgeon. All I know is the pain is excrutiating. This is what get for not obeying the physical therapist and continuing to use my walker. But the damn thing slows me down a lot. Fuck fuck fuckity fuck!!!


Eww Weekend!

  • Sep. 13th, 2009 at 7:56 PM
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This weekend was just hell upon my body. One I went through withdrawls of my pain medicine oxycontin. Now I know why they say that shit is addictive. You take it because the withdrawls make you feel really abnormal. I haven't spent a decent moment without feeling pain, queasy, wobbly, or just not me!!! Today I have the stomach flu on top of the withdrawls. Such a suck ass weekend. I didn't want to spend it all in my damn bed. I haven't felt comfortable at one second. Not only does this suck but my bed sucks to hell for comfort as well. I just want some normalcy back but I prefer to get it without the oxycontin thank you! Well I am off to watch the VMA's and Kanye can't keep his mouth shut!!!

Layout change and kiss my patootie Twitter!

  • Sep. 11th, 2009 at 4:32 PM
poeticsoul: (Default)
So I did a layout and mood theme change. The whole theme change is of course True Blood like I wanted to do. The image is of Eric in Sookie's dream from "I Will Rise" that I screencapped last week. The scrap kit I used to make the design is from Rainy Day Scraps. It's not much but I love the steamy scene. Lol.

Twitter is pissing me off by not adding the followers I approved to my list. I am tired of Twitter always failing in something these days. Anyways, not much to talk about today. It's called a very boring life.



  • Sep. 10th, 2009 at 10:23 PM
poeticsoul: (do i look like i give two shits about yo)
Apparently I don't exist to my family that I reside with today. You'd think the person who gave birth to me on this day would remember my birthday. My own mother and my own child forgot about it completely. How is that for making someone feel like they seriously don't exist?! Even my own extended family and my friends remembered that I was born. My extended family rarely remember it so to have them all remember it was odd too. I am depressed that my immediate family didn't remember it at all. My mom says to my son that they need to make it up to me. Uh um I wasn't born on a later date I was born today. Too late to say happy birthday later on. Since my family couldn't do the job my friends and I are going outside, get a fire going, and celebrate. Yeah I'm a tad pissed off too!


Where's the fast forward button?

  • Sep. 9th, 2009 at 9:13 AM
poeticsoul: (Eric Those Were Great Pumps)
Not looking forward to tomorrow at all. Tomorrow will be my thirty-first birthday. I dread turning 31 especially since my life has been even more suck ass when I turned thirty! It all goes downhill from here ladies and gents. I feel like I am turning 81 instead so can we please fast forward and just skip tomorrow all together? I know I'd really appreciate that. The sucky part of it? I still live at home with mama. Can't change it unfortunately but if I could so would have when I turned 21. However, it's a decade later and I'm still on that same ass boat that paddles in circles in the huge mother fucking ocean. The only life preserver I have from here is the m word. Marriage. However, that ain't gonna happen seeing as I am not in a relationship and refuse to be in one since all I attract is assholes. That would make for an unhealthy marriage. Along with my self-esteem/abuse issues that spells utter disaster. So yeah I really want a fast forward button.

I am still sleepy so I am off to bed now that everyone is gone. I have PT today so I want as much rest as I can have before he wears my muscles out and kills my knee even more. Toodles!


Life As It Is

  • Sep. 7th, 2009 at 9:17 PM
poeticsoul: (Default)
It's been one painful week and an out of whack weekend. I've been put on bedrest until I can get my knee replaced which will be sometime next year. Can you imagine how insane I will become from sheer boredom? I know what it'll be like after just one week of it! Blah is what it will be! Such fun.

Anyway my weekend had me totally off kilter. After being up about 72 hours during the week and having bad cramps I crashed some what Saturday by sleeping from twelve-thirty in the afternoon to nine. I got up for something to drink then went back to sleep till four in the morning. I stayed up for two hours and went back to sleep till almost ten in the morning. I ate breakfast and felt nauseous all day long. I told my mom I just felt really off. She suggested it was the pain med withdrawls since I don't use them every six hours each day like I used to. It's possible! I'm still not 100% today either but I managed to eat three meals today which was next to impossible all weekend. Well I am tired so I'm gonna watch Unborn now. Have good one!


It's Alive

  • Aug. 28th, 2009 at 9:50 AM
poeticsoul: (Default)
I am around. It's been a little over a week since I last updated. I haven't really been alert enough to do any major updates. Nor have I been able to sit long enough to do one. My hip is doing better but my knee has gotten worse. It's all swollen and looks misshapened. I can't get it replaced until next year though which sucks but they need to make sure my hip is fully healed first. I got my stitches pulled out Wednesday and my hip itches like a bitch but I know that means it's healing. Physical therapy here at home is going well and next week I will be able to put my full weight back on my hip again. Yay! Tae is back in school but he still is a big help around here for me. He got a facebook account on Wednesday because he wanted some new games to play like Mafia Wars so I set him up with one and told him he's not allowed to add anyone without my permission unless he actually knows them. I sat yesterday and Wednesday for two hours each time and my knee ends up regretting it.

I want to get a True Blood layout for my lj and dw accounts but don't know where the hell to get one from. I may just make my own when I feel 100% better to sit without regetting it later.

Well my pain pill is making me sleepy. Later ya'll!

Home Sweet Home!!!

  • Aug. 19th, 2009 at 7:38 PM
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Today I am at home.  It feels so good to be home in my own bed under my own roof away from pesky nurses and idiotic nurses.  Of course it means I gotta deal with the annoying Tae..lol! Right now I am feeling really loopy on these pain meds and just want to sleep it off but I am trying to spend a little time with Tae before I enter dreamland for the rest of the night.  I think I will go to bed around 9pm. Anyways, I just wanted to let you all know that I am at home now.  I will talk more later when I am more alert. Love ya!


Top 10 Reasons...

  • Jun. 22nd, 2009 at 10:48 AM
poeticsoul: (SM The reason I have no social life)
These are cute and funny.  I got them from my Twilight group

Top 10 reasons to be Team Edward:

10. Because he'll hold your drink for you when you need to use your hands, and he'll keep it cold, too. Not to mention he can be your personal ice-pack when you have a Bella moment.
9. He's a vampire and they've been around for centuries whereas werewolves are just new inventions. (Quote courtesy of Rob Pattinson)
8. He won't fall asleep and drool all over you.
7. Who needs a disco ball when you have Edward? Just take him outside and dance it up 'cause he sparkles!
6. He's a gentleman and will offer you choices.
5. He won't stink like a wet dog if you wash him.
4. Jacob may run a 108° temperature but Edward's still hotter.
3. He'll whisper sweet nothings in your ear in many different languages as well as quote Romeo & Juliet verbatim.
2. Because, in the end, he got the girl!
1. He is portrayed by Robert Pattinson….need we say more?

Top Ten Reasons to Be Team Jacob:
10. If you're ever stuck out in a snowstorm, his body heat could save your life.
9. He has the best vamp insults and some great blonde jokes!
8. He's still young enough to be impulsive and foolish. Every girl needs more of that in her life!
7. He could take you out to eat and actually eat with you.
6. He is a 6'7" tall, gorgeous, muscular Native American – what else do you need?
5. He's half naked most of the time.
4. Sometimes a girl needs a heating pad rather than an ice pack.
3. He is the epitome of tall, dark, and handsome. Plus, he's HOT!
2. He's like a puppy and a boyfriend all wrapped up in one!
1. He won't leave you stranded in the forest after breaking up with you.

Top 10 reason to be Team Switzerland:
10. Got a need for speed? They are both fast!
9. You can hunt wild game with Edward and play wild games with Jake.
8. You can go wherever you want when you date both: Forks and Quileute territory.
7. You can take Edward home to meet your parents and have fun with Jake on the side.
6. You can be reckless with Jacob and Edward will make sure that you're safe.
5. Because you shouldn't have to choose between a greek god look-alike and a hot, half naked guy.
4. Jacob can fix your car and Edward can buy a new one if Jacob can't fix it.
3. Because sometimes you need an air conditioner, and sometimes you need a space heater.
2. Who says you can't have the best of both worlds? They're both drop dead gorgeous.
1. Because you refuse to be affected by territorial disputes between mythical creatures


Not much new

  • Jun. 17th, 2009 at 11:53 AM
poeticsoul: (Default)
There isn't much new going on here.  Been dealing with constant migraines like I do every summer.  The only problem with that is it hasn't really been hot here. The highest we've had in the past two weeks is maybe 78.   More rain than anything else.  Who knows. Just know they are annoying the hell out of me. 

Told my members of my website that I am taking a couple of months off from pixelling.  I feel burnt out on pixels right now.  Plus I wanna focus on resting since my mental and physical health hasn't been the greatest.  I am still doing graphics though.  Just regular ones instead. 
I've got some new ones up for request if interested http://www.tagcorner.net/ERL/25/DesignsbyElainaNicole/

I am tired as usual.  Insomnia isn't helping much.  I try to get a nap in but sometimes that doesn't work out for me either.  It's rather annoying if you ask me.  I'll be tired as all hell, I'll go to lay down and wait to fall asleep and nada.  I don't know how much more my body can take.  Speaking of my body... I am going back to my orthopedic surgeon on the 15th of July.  Which probably means I won't be scheduled for surgery again until August.  That's annoying too.  I swear I might as well put it off until next summer! Tired of fucking doctors.  Well I am off. I am gonna try the nap thing again. 


For my Twilight loving friends!!!!

  • Jun. 10th, 2009 at 11:49 PM
poeticsoul: (that crooked smile)

Well I was bored today and made some icons for the two Twilight groups I'm in.  I've decided to share it with you all as well.  Feel free to snag (just don't direct link). Just let me know which one(s) & credit me for it.

Twilight icons )

As of right now...

  • Jun. 8th, 2009 at 9:22 PM
poeticsoul: (Default)
As of right I am feeling less and less motivated to do any pixel stuff and more and more wanting to get back into regular tags and stuff.  I don't know why either. I dunno maybe it's just because I feel unsatisfied with my life period. Who knows. Pointless entry.  Just needed to jot it down.


Blah Blah Blah Yap Yap Yap

  • Jun. 7th, 2009 at 6:01 PM
poeticsoul: (Default)
I have no title...hence the idiotic one I used. I am getting sick again.  Such fun.  I get tired of this bullshit of always being sick. It's just straight up annoying.  Anyways, the point of the entry.  That whole a wave of depression. Hmm, it's still there.  I thought a dose of vampire movies all weekend would help. Umm yeah no.  Instead it just reminds of pairs. Edward has Bella, Selene has Michael, Sonia has Lucian, need I continue? I am more so depressed that I am getting closer to 31 and still living with my mom. Depressed that I am stuck here without a car to just drive off whenever I so choose to. Depressed that I am not where I wanted to be in my writing. Depressed that I no longer have the heart and soul that I once had. Depressed with the hand I was dealt.  Where was I when the dealer shuffled the cards? Obviously not around because I sure would have handed the dealer my cards for a whole new set. I hate this hand.  1 card I definitely would have handed back...Sickle Cell Anemia.  Because of it I am turning 31 and living with mom. Because of it I am not working like I so desire to be. I can't blame it on my love life even though I make a sucky girlfriend because I am sick or tired 99% of the time but no that's a different card. Can't blame it for not writing. No I blame the writer's block on that card.  But I can blame it for not having a car. If I was working I could afford a car. On 675 a month I can't do that when Tae needs food and I have bills to pay. I don't know I am babbling about stupid shit that doesn't affect your life for you to care about that shit. 

Well I'm tired.  Was gonna work on a wordpress theme but no inspiration for it. Same goes for shading pixel tubes.  I think I lost my muse with this wave. Hopefully she'll swim back.
I am off now hope your weekend was awesome.

Tag available for request here http://www.tagcorner.net/ERL/25/DesignsbyElainaNicole/

It's just one big headache after another.

  • May. 19th, 2009 at 11:36 PM
poeticsoul: (diva lil' e)
I am done. Stick a fork in me because I'm done.  Surgeries canceled left, right, and forward..A cold. Now my period and more shit piled in my lap.  I have a migraine and what I heard made it worse.  No confirmation on the matter as of yet. So I am not gonna state it but I am so tempted to just give up on it. Say it's no longer worth what I do.  I'll go insane if I have to.  Ow my head hurts.  Fuck this I am going to go smoke, take my Inderal for my migraine, and pass out.


Not Much New

  • May. 17th, 2009 at 3:07 PM
poeticsoul: (Default)
I am still sick with this stupid ass cold.  That's one of things I hate about having Sickle Cell, your immune system sucks to pieces.  A cold that should last a day or two for you all lasts a week or two for me.  Yuck! I broke my fever but everything else I still have.  I'll probably get a fever again though because Tae is now sick with a cold and guess who'll get his leftover germs? Moi!  Anyways, I haven't done too much.  I've basically been trying to get my theme week together (for more info http://sacredpixelated.com/sp/disbme-theme-week) and resting.  Last night however mom, Tae, and I took in a movie.  We saw Star Trek.  Hey I grew up on the show thanks to mom in the days we only had 1 tv (a second wasn't introduced until I was 10 and Tae has always had his own so he never had to watch what I watch).  But the movie was awesome! I think I found another hunk besides Edward I like. Chris Pine's role as James T. Kirk! LOL yeah give grief about it.  Anyways, next weekend we go see Wolverine X-Men Origins.  Yay! I love Wolverine especially of all the X-Men.  Cyclops and Storm are a tie for second. Okay enough.  I have to take a nap.  I have been up since 6 am for no reason except having to blow my nose.  My neck hurts from sitting here all day.  Time to relax.


Sicko Here!

  • May. 13th, 2009 at 11:12 AM
poeticsoul: (very sick bear)
Well I don't even know why I bother.  I am sick as a fucking dog! I have a fever of 101.2, a sore throat, coughing, sneezing, stuffy nose half the time runny nose the other half, and achy as all get up.  Maybe I'm just not meant to have this surgery.  At least not this season.  Why?  Isn't the pain enough? Ah well.  The don't do surgeries on anyone sick and then top that off by someone with a major illness forget it.  It's just not my two months. Blah.  I am also feeling queasy now.  Why am I bothering to update when the words are blurring in front of me due to the migraine I also have? Who knows?! I think I'll go to bed now since I didn't sleep last because I couldn't breathe due to a stuffy nose and a fever. Well you now know the 411 on my situation as of right now.  I am off now.