Only Me!

  • May. 8th, 2009 at 3:59 PM
poeticsoul: (so sleepy)
Yeah only I would get sick the day before going to The Baton. Not sick sick but really achy as hell like my body is trying very hard to either fight it off or to catch it. I suck!

Depressed as I don't know what today too.  Got crap running through my head that makes me question myself and others. I will elaborate when I figure the mess out.

I don't have much to say today apparently.  If you know the digits text me if ya want to because I am going to lay back down.



Shock & Awe

  • May. 7th, 2009 at 4:44 PM
poeticsoul: (puppy push)

I went to the doctor this morning for my blood counts and get type & crossed for tomorrow. Well I ended up being shocked.  My blood count is 14.0.  The highest it's ever been in my whole life. So I don't have to be transfused tomorrow or Monday. I have to go back on Tuesday to find out my count again and to see if I will need one the day before surgery. I am trying to keep my hopes at an even keel because my blood has been real funny each time I have tried to have this surgery. Well I am in pain so I am gonna go lay back down and listen to music.  I bought an iPod touch today.  I am trying to decide if I give Tae my nano when my iPod touch arrives or just keep my nano to myself.  He already got my shuffle when I got the nano. Hmm must decide.


The Vampire Named Elaina

  • May. 5th, 2009 at 1:15 PM
poeticsoul: (Default)
You want to know a real vampire?  Come talk to me and I'll tell you the tale of the vampire named Elaina.  LOL! In all seriousness I am literally down about the way shit is going right now.  I have to have 7 pints of blood transfused in the next few days starting tomorrow morning.  Tomorrow I will be getting 3 pints.  Thursday I go for a type & cross (a way to find a donor).  Friday I get 2 more units, plus a type and cross.  Then I go for 2 more on Monday.  Hopefully it'll get me through to have surgery on the 14th.  This truly fucking sucks.  Tired of being a pincushion and tired of blood transfusions.  I want to cry so bad that I basically am fighting my own inner self to not do it.  It's a hard fight.  Watch I'll end up giving up that fight and crying myself to sleep!  I am so tempted to say fuck it and just deal with the agonizing pain to the point of needing a wheelchair.  I hate this life!  I wouldn't wish this shit on my own worst enemy even if they deserved the agony and pain.  My veins are basically useless and are just getting worse with the continual poking and prodding of the needles. So yeah I think I will go finish updating my siggy club then go and be emo for bit and write a poem or two. Not much else to say and shit else I can do!


  • May. 4th, 2009 at 7:28 AM
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Read something today and all I can say is Wow! Shit like I read just piss me off. Anyway, I have to be at UIC this morning for blood work. Can I say how much I hate being a human pincushion?! It's maddening with all the needle pokes I've been getting!

Ari wants to come over so I can fix up his Myspace page and put a new picture of him up. Frankly I don't feel like having him around right now. He just irks me.


  • May. 3rd, 2009 at 12:45 PM
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Riddle me this.  Why does it that when someone asks how you are doing they abruptly stop in mid-sentence to whine and complain about themselves? I hate that shit.  I have had Q do it to me. John do it to me. Today I had Ari do it. Enough already if you want to bitch then bitch but don't act like you care to know how I am if you're just gonna cut off my own thoughts and feelings.  At least if you just bitch without the pleasantries I know you're only looking for a shoulder to cry on.  Not the mixed up feeling that you actually care about my thoughts and feelings. Grr.

Anyway, yesterday I changed my layouts on LJ & DW.  The images are the ones I used for my Wordpress theme.  Today I was gonna shade pixels but I am too much pain to sit here for no more than 10 minutes at a time.  So I am gonna finish Breaking Dawn today.

Since this is crossposted to my LJ, my DW, and my WP blogs...this is for my LJ & WP friends.  I have two invite codes to Dreamwidth blog.  (What is Dreamwidth?) I will give one on LJ and one on WP. Leave your email in the comment area. 
Screened on LJ



  • May. 2nd, 2009 at 8:49 PM
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I love my friend Chris he's absolutely hilarious. Even though we haven't talked in months he knows how to pick the conversation like we talked the day before. I love that among other things about him. One day I have to go Florida and see him.



  • May. 2nd, 2009 at 3:15 PM
poeticsoul: (Default)
Trying out Dreamwidth. So far I am liking the freedom that LJ lost. Also liking the ability to crosspost this to LJ.

Friends Only!!!!

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